its been outdated 4 twenty-3 days.. HI Pendragon! been's such a hectic 23 days.. lotsa things had been happening so far.. but da most recent n tragic memory i had was on 2nd of February.. sum of u sud noe oredi.. yes, my maternal Grandfather passed away.. among all 4 of my Grandparents, he was da closet 2 me.. he was da one hu showered da most lurves and happiness 2 me n my family.. always crackin up jokes lyk.. Grandpa: "Who wants to follow me??" Me&mysiblings: "Me.Me.Me.Me.!! Grandpa want to go where?" GrandpA: "Toilet Bowl!" it sounds funnier in malay, n he wud always trick us.. even when my parents wen 4 their pilgrimage during da december hols, he volunteered 2 be responsible 4 anythin dat took place in da hse.. n i cud c dat during those times, when he cudn't walk properly n had 2 stay @ a certain position 4 a long time n me n my siblings were doin our own stuff lyk playin Xbox or da computer.. n dat at those times, i cud feel dat he was not n we weren't havin a usual conversation wif him cuz we always wanted 2 do our stuff.. rite now i feel so so so regretful.. i sud hav spend mre time wif him den.. sud hav lurved him da same way he had lurved me.. he even planned 2 get me my own UMPC(Ultra-mobile Personnal Computer) seeing or even hearing dat sum1 died, is nvr a pleasant thing 2 hear... here's da time-line.. ard 3weeks ago, my grandpa wen 2 my cousin's hse(as usual) n den frm wat i had heard, my grandpa started 2 vomit..n soon.. he had a stroke.. everythin on his right was paralysed.. he cudn't speak nor move his right limbs at all... he was den admitted 2 da hospital dat my uncle was workin at... when i came 2 visit him, dere were moments where he managed to ball his right hand into a fist.. but den it cud hv been an involuntary action(as at i've learnt in bio) after i came back n did da usual routine in schl, i gt busted wif Mdm Lee, my SS/Hist teacher.. Kim wanted me 2 help her wif sum questions n i was in da wrong when i decided 2 do it in durin her lesson.. obviously, she caught me referring 2 da a-maths txtbk... so my txtbk was den confiscated..n it so happen dat da wed nxt week i had an amaths test.. luckily my senior, How Cher, was fine in lettin me borrow his.. unfortunately his was da old edition (but hu cares anyway) n so on da mon nxt week, i had emaths supplementary 4 tues' e-maths TA.. n after dat, wif da help frm Jia Yong, I managed 2 find my senior's blok n get da bk.. den when i came back, frm da 1st floor, i cud c dat my hse gate was opened(i live in da 2nd floor) i wen up, entered my hse n found out dat da sofas in my living room were missing.. i walk in n turned 2 da dining room n saw dat my bro(hu was crying) n my mamma were carryin da furniture.. i had 2 thoughts at dat time.. 1. my mum wanted 2 do springcleaning @ da wrong time, n maybe my bro did sumting 2 piss mamma out n my mum might have scolded him, which wud hav resulted him in da crying.. 2. my mum bought new furniture n my bro was cryin cuz da sofas were heavy.. i guess i was wrong.. Me: "Hey. What's wrong?" My mum: "Kakak(big sista), Atuk meninggal." (grandpa died) my House of Night Novel: 'Untamed' and my senior's amaths bk simultaneously dropped.. i changed, n ard 8pm, da hse was filled wif ppl...even my neighbour was dere.. den at 9pm, da body came in.. my gradfather died in Pakar Puteri Hospital in Malaysia.. doctors frm dere had delivered him directly 2 our hse.. dat nite i din c his face at all... we juz prayed n paid our respects.. my aunt was da one hu had seen him go.. as she had mentioned..dat she was visiting him on monday afternoon.. n she started to wash his face..wiping his face with a perfumed cloth.. his eyes were opened, filled wif life..until my aunt felt a pulling sensation.. she had seen his life being pulled.. "one moment his eyes were opened n da nxt he looked up n den it nvr open again" da very nxt day, dey cleaned his body.. n yes i finally saw his lifeless face.. his mouth slightly ajar, his skin of a lighter colour.. dey washed him, n b4 dey covered each of our family members muz sprinkle dis kind of flower n kiss his forehead... it was so cold..lyk an ice cube being pulled out frm da fridge.. n we headed 2 da mosque 4 dis prayer.. n finally buried him at abt 11.30am.. n cudn't stop weeping n crying my hearts out.. n rite now i wanna thank these two people 4 being dere 4 me when i was down.. i personally wanna thank Alyssha 4 being da friend i always knew n cherished.. 4 being lyk a pal 2 tell me dat my grandpa's gone 2 a better place.. n a friend hu always can be trusted, thoughtful n kind.. Thanks Alyssha... but i reli wanna giv my thanks 2 dis 1 person hu's been keeping me company in between my tears of sorrow all dese while.. until my indox has 85% of his messages.. hu i c as a reli dependable n faithful pal.. Thank you, Chee Ann. i reli do miss my grandfather.. n i reli reli wish dat i sud hv spent more fruitfilling times wif him(Atuk = granfather).. no matter how or why or where.. u'll always be in my heart, Atuk! n i'll nvr ever 4get what a great man u were! -----------------------------------------------------------------------Craved By The Vampyre